Back to life, back to reality.

So it's been a while, I went to Florida to visit my grandparents so... I feel like I fell off the wagon.  Everything there is HUGE, people, portions... it's nuts.

I really enjoyed myself and did a lot of shopping, probably could have done more if I had a bigger suit case...  ha ha ha :)

Anyway, so I'm back now and back to reality and have to jump back into my healthy ways again. Eating breakfast, smaller portions, working out...  I gained everything I lost so I'm back at square one, which really annoys me but... I'm in a good state of mind to do it so... :)  Here goes nothin! :)

blog hater!!

So, I haven't blogged in a while, here goes, I'm down...13lbs :)  I had to check before I actually posted it. Ha ha!  I didn't think it would make that much of a deal but my pants are getting longer, not better in the waist, but since my thighs and "hips" have gone down my pants are getting longer.  Which in turn, makes them all slushy 'cause of the snow.  Which ISN'T a complaint ha ha, it's a statement... :)

So... I have a couple things I'd like to touch on.  First one, I've been swimming right?  It's so relaxing, however it's also made me realize that the car accident I had a few years back didn't just leave me with less short term memory, it also damaged my right shoulder and my left hip.  I guess I didn't realize it before because I never had to do the motion that would be needed to do the front crawl.  I only thought of it recently because I've been doing the..... breast stroke *tee hee* every time I've swam, the one time I tried to do the front crawl I stopped 'cause I didn't want to put my face in the water.  Then I tried again and I just couldn't do the motion and went under water anyway.  I cannot rotate my shoulder properly to do that stroke.  Now it's hurting actually so I've been trying to stretch it out.  The swimming was helping though :)  Now about my hip, it's only the left hip so...  when I try and do the breast stroke *tee hee* my left leg won't kick out like it's supposed to, it just kicks up and down.  So... long story short, my strokes are mildly retarded.  However I'm swimming with people who have had hip and knee replacements or have what appear to be bathmats on their backs and chests.  SEX EEEEE!

OH!  Speaking of that.  The other day I was at the pool and when I walked out from the change room I thought it was men's night because I was the only female until I noticed one small korean woman in the hot tub.  I'm looking around and all these men are there together, like 14 men, it was nuts.  And they were all yelling to eachother in like, Armenian or some language.  Anyway, I got in and I'm swimming away, I was actually having a really rough go of it that night unfortunately, the shoulder was so tense.  Anyway, so I decided to take a break in the shallow end and try and stretch it out.  So I'm in the shallow end on my knees doing stretches to my arms and legs and this man in his like late 40's in a speedo and hairy everywhere, with his gold chains, walks past me and looks down my bathing suit top.  DISGUSTING!  I almost lost it, like he was just... gross about it.  Anyway, he gets out and all his guys in the pool are chuckling away so I picked up my pride and got out of the pool.  Seriously?  Come on guy!  Anyway, I left feeling dirty.  Even after my shower.

Second thing I want to mention, I HATE the name of my blog.  That's what you get for rushing something.  When something comes into my head though, I can't think of anything else.  Anyway, I don't actually love food at all ha ha!  I am however, 55 points over for my week already! :s  It was family day today and we baked and had 2 HUGE dinners this weekend and my goodness!!  I also had burgerking on the way home from a concert.  Terrible idea.  So... I'm going to have to swim 3 nights this week, throw in some yoga, and cut out a few points every day.  BLAST!  Ha ha!

Not making the same mistakes

So today I've lost 9.5 lbs doing it slowly and surely 'cause last time I lost 100 lbs in a year and it didn't go well.

However when I punched in my weight today they said I need to slow down however, I think the only reason why I lost so much is 'cause I went swimming more than usual this week, which is nice.

I've lost:

9.5 lbs (total)
7 cm around my waist
5 centimetres around each thigh (now they are the same size)

However, I've gained:

3 cm around my bust
2 cm around my arms

That's probably from the swimming I'd imagine.  I don't have an explanation for stuff like that but...  I guess we'll find out as we progress.

This week I plan on swimming 4 times.  I don't know if the schedule will allow for it but I'm going to try :)

I don't really know if I should jump into swimming that many times in a week from the get go, you know, so I have something to build up to?  I don't know...  Anyway, it's the weekend, I'm going to relax. :)

Have a good one folks! xo

Shopping for shower shoes

It's been a while,

I've been so frickin' busy that I haven't had the chance to blog again.  I've been swimming during my "blog time."  So now I'm blogging on my lunch at work.  I don't have much time so I'll have to keep it short.

I've been swimming, like I said, ha ha ha anyway, it's been great, I finally found a place I'm comfortable going which is nice, so I've gone twice this week and I'm going again on sunday.  I plan on going sunday - thursday eventually and it's my goal to swim the entire hour in the fast lane.  So I'm slowly working my way up to that :)

Last night I went by myself for the first time, it was great, then about 40 minutes into it, a REALLY hot guy came in and I got uncomfortable.  I know it's stupid and self conscious, but I can't help it.  He's like, olympic swimmer style hot so I got nervous, I kept trying to avoid swimming at the same time as him, but almost every time I went he would be beside me the whole way, really uncomfortable, especially 'cause he's REALLY good at swimming.  Anyway, I decided to wait until he was half way down the pool before I started another lap and then we'd be off time so we wouldn't swim together.  No no, he would meet me in the middle and swim beside me or bump my hand half way.  I got out after he decided to take another turn.

Anyway, when I went into the change room, they have these UBER painful floor mats so you're not walking on slippy floor, well, I'm walkin, I'm walkin, and there was a one foot space between one mat and the other one in the change room, I step down and WHOOPS!  I'm on one knee, towel around my shoulders, with my arms out for balance.  If I didn't scare the crap out of myself I probably would have started singing elvis's opening song ha ha!  I didn't hurt myself luckily.  Just scared myself pretty badly.  No one saw, thank goodness.  I quickly grabbed my stuff, tensly and carefully walked into the change stall and proceeded to change while sitting down.  Man it's difficult to put clothes on while sitting and you have water on your legs.

Note to self ***GET SHOWER SHOES***

The results are in....

So today is saturday.  My weigh in day.  I forgot to do this last week but that's okay 'cause I didn't do measurements last week.  So here are the results:

Weight: -7.8lbs
Waist: -8 cm
Thighs: -1cm (well average, one thigh is way larger than the other apparently... by like 8 cm!!  Who knew?
Arms: -2cm
Bust: +2 (confusing yes, complaining, no. ha ha :)

I'm happy, this is what I wanted to do, see a visual of how it was changing.  I have this mental thing where I always look the same in the mirror to myself, I don't actually know what I look like until I look at a picture, weird eh?  I don't understand it but...

So of all the places to put cm's on I'm glad it was my bust, I mean, everyone wants a larger bust right?  Ha ha ha!  I even made sure I was wearing the same bra and everything, running around looking for the exact one like a moron ha ha!  Anyway, hormonal changes and stuff can change those too so I'm not worried at all.

Anyway, today on the schedule I'm hangin' out with my friend Robynn so I shall bid you adieu!

Just keep swimming...

So today, I found my exercise...  I'm going swimming.  My friend Norma whom I sing with on my church worship team just turned 50 and she's training for a triathalon, TALK about inspirational.  So tonight, we're planning on going together, not to train for a triathalon, just swimming :)  I don't know how long we'll be there, or how many passes I'll do but... I always liked swimming when we used to have a pool.  Just not the whole "bathing suit" thing...  So... I'm facing a fear tonight as well as getting some exercise.  Actually I should leave now so I will blog about if after as well.

So apparently I didn't post my thing 'cause I ran out of here in a rush and now I'm back from swimming :).  Swimming was fun, however there were two douche bags in my lane with me who kept running into me.  Like, pay attention to where you're going or move to a faster lane!  Anyway, it was relaxing when they left.  I was super uncomfortable when I got there 'cause there were loads of "swimmers" so... that sucked.  I did it though, and I'm alive.  Next week we're going to a different pool though 'cause there were so many people. 

Oh, and women's change rooms, I have NEVER seen so many boobies in all my life.  I had forgotten that the women there have no shame whatsoever, trapsing around nude.  Whereas I'm uncomfortable strolling around in a bathing suit that shows too much skin.  Seriously people, have some decency.  If not for yourself, but for the people around you.  One woman was just having a conversation in the nude.  Really?  Anyway, I'm not like that, I tucked myself securely in a change room, stripped down uncomfortably and put on my bathing suit.  Anyway, it's definitely something I would do by myself later on, swimming that is, not galavanting around in the buff.  Once I find a place I personally like. 

There are two things I don't like about swimming though.  The smell... I hate the combination of clorine and urine.  DISGUSTING.  I've showered twice since I went swimming an hour ago and still I can smell it.  It must be STUCK to my nose hairs.  DELISH!  Second, however, this is a thing I don't like, but I do like at the same time.  I know, you're saying, how can you hate something and like something at the same time.  You'll get it when I say it though.  So just say it already right?  Ha ha!  Well, I hate that I can already feel that I'm going to be walking around like Frankenstein tomorrow because of working the muscles I don't normally use.  I hate this 'cause it's sore, but I love it because I'm working stuff out :)  Anyway, I'm gonna hit the hay.  Hopefully all this swimming took some of my energy and I'll be able to fall asleep.  nighty night!

Tootsie Roll

So I was SO CLOSE to working out today.  That sounds awful I know, but my mother doesn't encourage me at all and when she's home I find it hard to walk past her downstairs to work out.  'cause when I come back up an hour later something always comes out of her mouth like "You're not even sweaty."  Or "Maybe you should do another hour."  Now I know I'm sensitive but this ALWAYS upsets me, and it's always been how my mother talks to me. 

So I've come up with a plan, my mom works 10 - 6 this month so I've decided to come home from work, work out for an hour and a half then head back up to my room and change so she doesn't even know I've worked out.  However, that happened last week, I worked out REALLY hard before she came home, came upstairs and changed, then saw her later and she said "You know, you can't just diet, you have to exercise too or else you'll never lose anything." 

Anyway, next month she's supposed to work the same shift as me which means she'll be home 30 mins after I get home from work so I've decided to walk the floors at work, go to the bottom, walk all the way to the other side, take the stairs up, walk all the way across the building, then up the stairs and repeated for all five floors.  I'm getting in some activity however I look like I'm just working walking from one area to the other.  So I'll do that when she's working the same shift as me.  I should pick up a pedometer (hopefully it wont fall in the toilet like the last one).

I wanted to just dance around my room so I went to download some new fun music and remembered there was a song I wanted to download that I heard on our local jazz station here.  Anyway, I downloaded it and everything else by this artist that was available, and I LOVE it.  Her name is Zee Avi, and she's fantastic.  I'm a singer and I've been told on several occasions I have a bluesy/jazzy voice but I never really get to show it off 'cause i'm usually singing gospel or ballads.  I'd really like to try singing jazz in a performance not just in my car.  I just love the way it feels....  If that makes any sense...

Today I had smart ones shrimp in maranara.  it was BRUTAL.  I couldn't even eat it, I had some shrimp and some noodles, gross.  Couldn't handle it.  I also had the chocolate cake tonight, it was alright.  Like I said yesterday, I'm not a huge chocolate fan so...  Anyway, I've decided to go to bed now and get up at 6 and do yoga before I shower.  Good plan?  We'll see how it goes tomorrow morning when I'm trying to roll out of bed.